This isn’t burnout. It’s the shift.
If everything feels off right now, read this:
What It Really Feels Like to Be Awake in the Dream
(It isn’t always rainbows & unicorns)
I don’t know how else to say it—this life doesn’t feel like mine anymore. It’s been building quietly beneath the surface, but today it’s loud—fully present. I’ve hesitated to put it into words, maybe because naming it makes it more real. But here it is:
My life doesn’t fit anymore. The version of me that built all of this feels like he’s already dissolved. And yet I’m still living in the dream he created. But I’m not him anymore. It literally feels like I’m dreaming.
It’s uncomfortable. Disorienting at times. Frustrating.
Nothing I’m “supposed” to be doing makes any sense. There’s no pull toward it. No energy behind it. It’s not burnout—it’s that I’ve outgrown the entire framework. I can’t keep pushing toward a version of reality that’s already expired. And yet I’m still here, moving through a life that doesn’t match who I’ve become…mostly because a part of me feels like I need to—for rent, groceries—survival.
It feels like I’m standing in the echo of an old life, watching it flicker. I know I can’t go back—but the next version hasn’t fully arrived either. So I’m suspended in this strange void. No clear path forward, just a deep knowing that I can’t keep pretending this dream still fits.
At times, it’s easy to mistake this for depression. But it’s not that. I deeply know it’s a resonance mismatch. I’m literally not on the same plane of existence I was before—but I haven’t fully landed in the next one yet.
What once fit—what once maybe even felt aligned—no longer resonates. That’s why it’s impossible to just “try harder” or “get back on track.” The track itself isn’t mine anymore, and it feels like a new version of me is being magnetically pushed away from it.
Currently I’m feeling trapped because the shell of my old self has become too small. My life hasn’t caught up to this new state of resonance yet—and that dissonance shows up as frustration, anxiety, even despair. I’m in the void between identities. I’m not who I was. But the next version hasn’t fully come online yet. And the mind hates this space. It can’t orient here.
Even my connection to the higher realms feels like it’s been rerouting. The signal is still there—but it’s on a frequency band I haven’t stabilized into yet. I know I’m not blocked. I’m in the middle of a total identity shift. Everything is rewiring itself under the surface.
But it’s hard. And it’s frustrating.
I’ve been on this wave for a while, but it’s really cresting right now…full force. It is a strange feeling.
If you’re feeling this too—like your old life no longer fits but the new one hasn’t fully arrived—just know you’re not alone.
This space is hard, but it’s not the end. It’s the threshold.
Something new is on its way.
Even if we can’t see it yet… we can feel it.
You’re not the only one dreaming your way into the next world.
We’re in this together.
If this reflection resonates with you—if you’ve been feeling the pull but aren’t sure where to land right now—this is exactly why I created the Sacred Sound Inner Circle.
It’s a space to hold what this moment is asking of us.
Not just with words, but with frequency.
Not just with support, but with structure—the kind that vibrates in resonance with who you’re becoming.
More info on the Sacred Sound Inner Circle:
